Day 25 of the Photography 101 challenge and Begonia could not have been more helpful! Today’s challenge was “Starts with an S” and Begonia chose Sunshine!
I have never seen her sun herself and for some reason she chose today to start.
Today was Mother’s Day and I barely spoke to my mom. She was in pain and I was mad, frustrated, overreacting, ridiculous, childish, whatever you want to call it.
I keep asking myself is this really my life? I try to stop needed people, but I can’t seem to stop. I trying reaching out to people, but I always make excuses for them. I see my mom’s life and I desperately want the opposite. And yet I am jealous that she has a husband and child and I never will.
Yes, I believe I will never have a husband. I am trying to accept that I will never have children. For some reason, God has other plans for me. I just wish he would give a little clue of why he has chosen this life for me. It is very lonely and miserable. I do not know how much more I can take of it.
I can say with confidence that I am a great eater. I eat all the time. I eat because I bored. I eat because I am sad. I eat to fill the huge void in my heart, my soul, and my life. The way I look at is that I am at least good at something!
