I made a major step in getting a new dog today. I went to look at dogs. I actually went on Petfinder.com and had a specific dog that I wanted to look at The Mary S. Roberts Pet Adoption Center. I was scared and I cried on the way there. The dog I went to see was not for me, but I did meet with Sniffy.
He was not a good fit for my family, but it was a big step. I missed having a dog to play with and love on. It made me miss Val even more, but I know that she would want me to move on. My heart is still broken. The best way to heal it and honor Val is rescue another dog.
I’ll get there one day. Step by step.
Tonight I took my mom out for Mother’s Day dinner. She has never been one to do the whole Mother’s Day brunch hoopla. I took my parents to Lulu California Bistro in Palm Springs. It is a great restaurant and usually a lot of fun. I wish I could say that I had a good time, but I did not. My parents are difficult to be around, especially when they are together, and I felt I drove 45 minutes and spent $100 for nothing. Mom seemed to not enjoy herself and Dad has the table manners of a caveman. I was hoping to walk around Palm Springs, since the weather was perfect. That did not happen. I drove home a fast as I could. I should have known better than to have expectations of a pleasant evening. Thank goodness it is all over.
I laugh that on the day I went to see a dog, I choose a picture of Val for Day 24 of Photography 101.
The challenge for today was “Pure Joy”. I found this picture and I knew this was the one. Val knew how to find joy in the littlest of things. She taught me to find joy in a walk, a good nap, and in throwing the ball. This is what Val and I were doing in this picture.
I look at this picture and I cry. I cannot believe that it has been 6 months since I lost Val. I still expect to see her waiting to come inside. I still think about her every time I want to go for a walk. I still look for her when I need reassurance. I need her more than ever now.
