March 31, 2007 by samantha.

My Friday morning started off great.  I was getting paid an extra $250 to show up to work and I knew I had an exciting weekend ahead.  I was driving to work, listening to the radio, when I started to hear this weird buzzing sound.  At first I thought it was the radio station, so I changed stations.  The buzzing sound was still there.  I tried turning off the radio and the air conditioner, but the buzzing sound continued.  I even tried turning the car off and still I heard the odd noise.  Since I was already on my way to work, I decided to keep going.  I turned the radio up and got on the freeway. I figured that if my car was going to explode, I would make it onto CNN.  What a way to go! Every once in awhile I would turn down the radio to see if the sound was still there.  It was.  As I was driving down the freeway and trying to ignore the sound, my mind began to wander.  If my car was having a serious problem, a mechanic would probably charge me $2000 plus the price of a rental car.  My Friday was not looking so good.

I made it to Kristi’s house with the buzzing sound still going strong.  I turned off the car and popped the hood.  I opened the hood to see if the sound was coming from the engine.  You know as well as I do that I had no idea what I was looking for, but I thought I would give it a try.  No buzzing sound came from under the hood.  Kristi came out and came over to hear the sound.  She was just as confused as I and ran to get her husband.  I decided to take one more look at my car, when all of a sudden the cause of the buzzing was identified.  It was my Bluetooth headset!  For some reason, the headset was buzzing.  I have no idea why.  It never buzzed before.  At that point, I could care less why it was buzzing!  I was just so happy that my car was okay.  No outrageous mechanic bill!!  My Friday was back to a good start!

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March 30, 2007 by samantha.

Is it too late to make a New Year’s Resolution?  It is never too late to make a change, so I would have to say no to my own question.  What do you think? Anyway, I have decided I need to start working on making a change in my life.  I need to stop stressing out over everything.  All of you will agree that I have become the queen of stressing over anything and everything.  I get these ideas into my head and I stress myself out worrying about it.  Instead of trying to work through the problem, I practically give myself an ulcer.  I never used to be like this.  I used to be pretty laid back and took everything with a grain of salt.  Now I stress out over my job, my relationships, my bills, and everything else, which is just ridiculous!  I have no bills (except for that damn $120 credit card bill!), I made it through the first year at my job, and most of my relationships are going well.

Since we are talking about relationships, I have learned a lot about them recently.  I have to stop being so trusting of people.  I let people walk all over me and I do not realize until it is too late.  And what is even more frustrating is that everyone around me sees it!! I just believe that everyone should be given a fair chance.  I am guilty of giving people a million chances, but I like to believe that I live by the golden rule.  I try to treat everyone with kindness and fairness.  I know that I will not always been given the same chance, but that is what separates me from people I do not like.  Maybe I should also work on not being so judgmental…

Anyway, I am beginning to see that I am stressing over the most ridiculous things.  Today for instance, I almost brought myself to tears over stress.  After I saw that I was worrying for nothing, I was relieved but I also felt a little dumb!  If I had something serious to worry about, I could see making a big deal out of it.  I am so fortunate in my life that I have nothing serious that could cause me stress and worry.  I have to keep telling myself that.  There is always someone worse off than me, to use one of my least favorite
sayings.

So now I give you a challenge America (or least the handful of people that read this blog)! When I am beginning to make a spectacle of myself by stressing over nothing, let me know.  I know you have more important things to do, but I need your help.  I know I cannot do this on my own.  Help me to see why I am being a silly.  Help me to realize that there are more important things to worry about in life.  Think of it as another chance for you to call me a dork.  That should get everyone on the bandwagon!!!

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March 29, 2007 by samantha.

I have not been sleeping well. I am having trouble falling asleep. When I am able to fall asleep, I have trouble staying asleep. And then last night, I started having nightmares that made me afraid to try sleeping. I have had trouble sleeping in the past and it never really bothered me. I can handle two or three nights of no sleep. I have more important things to worry about than a few bad nights of sleep. I just take the next few days easy. No biggie. But now I am getting frustrated. I want to sleep!! I am not asking for a few eight hours. Five hours would be nice!

What is keeping me up at night? Your guess is as good as mine! I could come up with a bunch of ideas, but I cannot pinpoint one as the main culprit! Thank goodness I have Spring Break coming up. It will give me time to catch up on my sleep. Val will be so happy with me. She is giving me dirty looks and I know she is thinking of ways to put me permanently to sleep. She never has trouble sleeping. Her head hits the pillow (yes, she has a pillow) and she is out.

So tonight I am going to take some Tylenol PM and hopefully have some pleasant dreams. Everything else I have tried has not worked. Tomorrow I should be in a better mood. Everyone will be happy. Val will be happy! Sweet dreams everyone!

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March 23, 2007 by samantha.

What would you do if you were in my position? I need advice. In fact, I am desperate for your advice. What if you knew that someone was going to offer your friend a large sum of money to do something that they really didn’t want to do? The offer is nothing bad or illegal, but instead it is a bribe of sorts. My big question is if you knew about this offer, would you tell the person? I want to tell the people involved, but I also think I should mind my own business. I know that I am being very vague, but if you want the gory details you will have to call me. What should I do?

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March 21, 2007 by samantha.

My mom and I had an interesting conversation this afternoon. I searched high and low for a picture to make my mom happy and to express my feelings of her and the conversation. So mom, this one is for you!!! I think it sums up my thoughts Love you!!!

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March 20, 2007 by samantha.

I just want to write a quick post and get yet another thing off my chest.  I hate backstabbers.  I despise them and I take it personally.  I have no time for people with an agenda, people who think only of themselves, people who will walk all over you.  I get pissed off about it and eventually get over it.  I do not forgive or forget.  I just move on. I know that karma is a bitch.  I know that their time will come and the price they pay will be quite expensive.  You eventually have to face the music and live up to what you did.  Think twice before you act.  And don’t make me get the flying monkeys, damn it!!!

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March 19, 2007 by samantha.

Why is it that people feel the need to meddle in other people’s business?  I know I should not be that surprised or disturbed by it.  We are a culture of nosy people.  We know more about the lives of celebrities than we do about the state of the world.  We read the tabloids like we eat junk food.  People would rather boss others around than try to solve their own problems. I guess it is easier to fix other people than deal with our own dilemmas.  I am just sick of people telling me what to do.  Unsolicited advice is rarely welcomed.  I always find it comical that the people who are telling you how to run your life do not have lives that we would want.  Just like everyone else, I am guilty of telling people what to do.  I like to think that I give the advice with a grain of salt.  I am sure I have rubbed people the wrong way when I gave the advice.  But I would hope that I did not harp on the issue.  I hope that I let it go and moved on.

Now I think that telling people how to live their lives and telling them information they do not want to hear are two different things.  Is that just an excuse that I have come to believe?  Is that my way of making me feel better about doing it? Maybe it is.  And I know that after I tell someone something that they do want hear, I say sorry.  What good does that do?  I guess it makes me feel better.  I do not know!  I am just rambling and trying to get my frustrations off my chest.  It was a long weekend.  I would not say it was bad, but it was not good.  People just irk me… some more than others.  Thank goodness I do not have to deal with certain people often!

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March 14, 2007 by samantha.

Is this a sign of things to come?  Last week, I was wearing a jacket and hiding under a warm blanket.  This week, I am turning down the AC and wondering how it could get so hot so fast!  Now it only got to 89 yesterday and 85 today, but come on!!!  It is March!  It should not be this hot.  And we have already had our first fire of the year.  This is going to be a long, horrible, hot summer.  We got almost no rain and experts say that this is going to be a bad fire season.  I wonder though… is this going to be like hurricane predictions?  Every year the hurricane experts make their predictions and say that it is going to be the worst hurricane season ever!  And almost every year, the so-called experts are wrong.  So are these predictions of a horrible fire season believable?  I would have to say that I think I believe in the prediction of fires more than the prediction of hurricanes.  It is easier to tell the right conditions for a fire. The conditions are more likely to stay the same for an extended period of time.  Hurricanes and the conditions that make it right for them to form are a little harder to predict.  That is my two cents.  What the heck do I know?!!?  I am only a middle school teacher.

Getting back to my original rant, I want spring!!!  I want the rain and the cool weather getting warmer, bit by bit.  Of course, I hate hot weather.  I even hate warm weather.  I want cold.  I think I should move to Antarctica.  I should make the move soon before there is no Antarctica! I am going to go and sit in the freezer now.

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March 12, 2007 by samantha.

Oy vay!  What a crazy month it has been since I last posted.  I would love to tell you that the most amazing things have happened, but unfortunately that is far from being true.  To be honest and blunt, I have been in the worst of funks.  I reached my lowest point last week and I think I am finally getting back to my old self.  What put me in a funk you ask?  Hell if I know!  Maybe it is the weather getting warmer.  Maybe it is hormonal.  Maybe it is my way of dealing with the state of the nation.  Maybe I am just having sympathy pains for Brittany.  Your guess is as good as mine.  I will say that this spell was a bad one.  I continued to spiral downward and I was starting to get scared.  At times I thought I would never make it out.  Last week I was crying at everything and anything.  But I am beginning to see the end of the spell.  I am started to get excited about things again and making plans.  I can see the light!  I will survive!  Am I being a little overdramatic??!?!  Impossible!  I am never overdramatic…

What have you all been up too?

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